I think I KNEW THERE WAS A DIFFERENCE ONE DAY LAST YR. I WAS ON THE TRAIN FROM UXBRIDGE CENTRAL LONDON, MAYBE I WAS GOING FOR a job interview
Anyway I was sitting there looking at the graffiti on the train window, and realised it was very beautiful, and maybe jus thinking that this thing was beautiful, that it was enough, and maybe that it was enough of an artwork instead of me making something. So then I just looked around and noticed so many interesting things, a woman had a phone case that had glitter and liquid in so moved about every time the phone moved. I think someone had some henna, the things are irrelevant maybe, but the mind set had changed.
I remember I was actually going to counselling, I mentioned this to Martin who said it was about having a peaceful mind, Which i said ok to, but actually dont agree with it. It wasnt about a peaceful mind, because its not peaceful, It’s that something had changed, maybe through counselling (he helped me a lot), My eyes opened to that there is literally enough things out and about and my labour can be used in a different way. I now think that the work I make will come like horse droppings, they just go along and shit as and when.
